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« on: July 19, 2009, 09:23:48 AM »
i sat here a few minutes wondering if i should post ... i have been alone more then with someone in my life.. and alot of that has been my choice because i was always afraid the bottom would drop out and i protected my heart.then i met someone in 98 aqnd fell deeply in love and we did everything together...married in 2000 had my dream farm and animals and a wonderful stepfather for my son who adored him and 2002 boom he died suddenly of a heart attack,everything was gone in an instant...lost everything farm,husband,everything.....very devestating...u feel like you'll never get over it...but u just put one foot in front of the other each day and carry on somehow,then as time goes on u think about it less and less.you still go thru times of sickening stomache aches and sniffles but it does pass.he will not be here for you to run into him which is good,the way i feel is he didn't truly love u anyway and if you were on again off again then it wasn'r meant to be.one day someone will sweep you off your feet and love you like you DESERVE to be loved like i had and noone can take that away....then when u least expect it he will try to come back but you will have moved on...think ahead to the future and would you have been truely happy with him and after this could you trust him?? i'm very very sorry for you but hold your head up,get out of bed and find things to do,the worst thing you can do is sit still and think....how dare he treat you that way anyway !!! JERK...
lorraine