Well how in the heck am I supposed to see when there's tears in my eyes.
Dear Momma,
I now know how hard life was for you, right from childhood and even somewhat through your marriage to Daddy. You took total care of me for most of the first 3 years of my life because Daddy was drafted into the army shortly after I was born. You worked as a nanny and maid and we lived with the family you worked for. Interesting because you worked for a wealthy family, you were taught some of the finer things in life about etiquette that you wouldn't ever have known living on a farm. To this day I can't stand it when Pete sets the table for company and puts the silverware in the wrong places. And he doesn't understand that the knife blade should be toward the plate with the water goblet at it's tip.
Mercy, you worked hard. Daddy was always out in the barn or in the fields. You cleaned the milking buckets and equipment, did the gardening, mowed the lawn, helped me take care of the animals, caught the chicken for Sunday dinner, chopped off his head, plucked his feathers and cleaned him. You canned, cooked everything you could get your hands on, baked everything from scratch, sewed all your and my clothes, crocheted fancies for the house and as gifts. You made quilts and afghans for everybody and their brother. You were always having company for meals or taking covered dishes to hurting people. You often entertained large groups of people from church and family and never batted an eye at having to cook all that food.
Oh and then you wired our farm house to keep it from burning down. You put texture paint on most of the rooms in the old farm house to cover the cracks in the plaster. You reupholstered and refinished the furniture you found at auctions so we could have nice things. You painted our kitchen floor so many times I remember the paint flaking off in chunks. Oh and remember the time you decided you had painted it one last time and bought a roll of linoleum? Remember spreading the glue on the floor and then you and I tried to slide it under the kickboard of the kitchen cupboards?? And remember it wouldn't slide?? So as usual I was barefoot anyways and walked in the glue to lift the linoleum up a bit to reposition it. We got it done didn't we?
Remember the runt baby piggies behind the wood stove. We took care of them until they were big enough to put back with the litter. Oh and I remember when you got fed up with our well that was way out by the barn. We had to pump the water into buckets and bring it in the house. But one day I brought in a bucket of water and there was a snail in the water. You said that was the last time we were having wildlife in our drinking water. LOL. Then a man came with a forked stick and doused for water around the house. He found a spot right near the back corner of the house and sure enough, down only about 40 feet just like he had said, the well driller man hit a good vein of water. Oh and then shortly after than we had a man come and put in a REAL bathroom. Wonder what happened to that old 2 holer that had stood out behind the house for so many years.
Funny, you never showed much emotion and just never hugged me or told me you cared. But daddy gave me a round aluminum lunch bucket last year like I used to carry to school in first and second grade. He told me how you used to stand in the upstairs window when it was time for me to come home from school. You would watch for the sun to reflect off the lunch bucket while I was walking alone swinging that bucket, coming home and you'd know I was OK. I never went hungry. I never wanted for clothes. They might have been homemade or hand me downs but were never allowed to be warn with holes or tatters.
Remember those brown long cotton stockings? I hated those things. Where on earth did you find them? Nobody else in the world had to wear them. You also made me wear white ones for church on Sunday. All the other girls thought they were so cool because they were kind of like stockings that grown up ladies wore and were held u with a garter belt just like ladies wore. And dresses and skirts were what a young lady wore. Then something happened that convinced you it was OK for me to wear pants to school. I tore two skirts two days in a row, jumping out of swings to see who could jump the farthest. Then teacher told you that Wendy Littlefair and I were the best tree climbers in the country school. You weren't about to have your daughter with her skirt over her head!! And you finally were convinced I should be allowed to wear pants.
Remember when Daddy cut the legs off my pants? It was so hot and we were picking up stones out in the tilled fields. I would drive the tractor to move the trailer ahead and then get down to pick up the little stones. The men picked up the bigger ones. Daddy must have noticed I was sweating a lot and took out his ever present jackknife and hacked the legs off the pants. I was so shocked because I knew you were going to have a fit when you found out Daddy had ruined my pants. All you did was hem up the bottoms and you didn't seem to mind that I had my first pair of unladylike shorts. After that you made shorts and matching tops for me to wear when it was hot.
Remember the bookmobile? You loved to read and Zane Gray was your favorite author. I would walk or ride my bike about 2 miles to school once a week in the summer and get 4 books from the children's section. Then I lied and told the bookmobile lady I needed 4 books for my mother. I took them home and read them all and you seldom had time to read any of them. Last May I was in an antique mall in Ashville NC and saw books by Zane Gray. I bought 4 of them just because it reminded me of you.
Remember when you dropped that huge post we were moving and it flipped out of my hands and landed on top of my foot? Remember all the times I stepped on nails when my feet were bare? You would soak my foot in Epson salts and water so hot I was convinced it was doing more harm than the nail had done. I don't remember going to doctors. Remember the honey, butter, and lemon mixture you'd give me for a sore throat. I almost would lie that I had a sore throat to get you to make that for me.
Oh and I remember when you have your tonsils out. You had it done in the doctor's office and came right home afterwards. Mercy you smelled bad of the ether they used to knock you out.
Remember when Aunt Luille gave me her old balloon tire bicycle when I was about 10. I was so amazed that you knew how to ride a bike. I had that bike until it was stolen when I was about 20.
We didn't play much did we? But even though you didn't say so, I knew you loved me because you took such good care of me and taught me how to be a good wife and mother. You left me with a legacy of teaching my children about Jesus at an early age just like you did me. What you have taught me has carried me through many tough times in my last 45 years and I have you and Daddy to thank for it. You taught me to have faith in God, work hard, be honest and trustworthy, to be frugal, to respect my elders and be responsible. What more does a person need to know?
Hey, did you know that Daddy remarried??? Yah, I was surprised too. But they are doing fine. Just thought you'd like to know she's a nice lady but doesn't know half what you did about getting along in life and "making do". Just the other day Daddy said, "Nobody could stretch a dollar like your mother." Well I guess I have gone on quite long enough. I have some embroidering to do for some people and I have to call Kevin to see how Braeden made out today. See, I think I have inherited a lot of your traits. Lucky me. The older I get, the more I also look like you.
Love you mom.