I am so glad that your stunning wife doesn't need anymore chemo! And although that seems so silly about your job, guess you can look at it as being able to have your leg heal fully and carefully.
so, what words are on the paper?
(((((Esther and Debbie)))))))))))))
I printed out a stupid list of pumps on my unit but my vacation was jotted down in the upper corner. Before we knew about her blood tests we moved the vacation forward to March.
If she had to begin chemo she would be way too sick to celebrate our anniversary in May so we bumped it up to March. Now that we know she will be well we can vacation in May on the beach as usual.
We will take our kayaks to the beach and rent a place for a week. She loves to paddle out beyond where the waves are breaking about 200 yards and then turn around.
The water out there gets really slick at times and you study the surf as the water breaks over the sandbars near the shore and makes waves. We begin to paddle toward the shore together.
As you approach the sandbars, the waves build up and you really have to paddle hard on either side to compensate and stay straight with the wave. When you do this right, the wave picks you up and you surf really fast toward the shore but you have to make a lot of corrections with your paddle.
If you get the least little bit sideways, the wave rolls you over and you fall out. The more that you drink, the more fun this gets. We had a blast last year with my son and Daughter in law taking turns.
I'm really glad that we will be able to do this again this year. We aren't getting any younger and God makes no promises about how many more summers that we have to share.
Debbie, my heart goes out to you and I hope that you heal well. It will take time. The loss of a loved one lingers for a lifetime, we just learn to deal with it. A friend on another board just lost her Dad and I sent her this.
Please, listen to Sarah sing about it. We sometime get so self absorbed in our problems that we don't really realize what really matters the most to us.
We want so bad to win the lotto that we sometime miss the really true treasure that is sitting right next to us. A person that all of the money in the world cannot buy one more second with.
We are so blessed with those that we love and those that love us. At times it just becomes comfortable. They are like a rock or an anchor that has always been there and will always be there, a steady presence no matter how hard the wind blew you knew that you could always count on them. There was no question, Daddy, Momma my spouse or child was there for me always my friend.
And then one day, they were gone. The good ones really leave a footprint in your heart that never goes away. We all getself absorbed, that is human nature but when they do go we have to take some comfort in other's words, those who can sing it and say it like this. Listen to Sarah sing.
It may not fit exactly but the words hit home to me..
"I need some distraction or a beautiful release, memories seep from my veins, let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVbkz_3lO3c