No, I'm sure she wanted attention, but she has talked about ending her life numerous times and it should never be taken lightly when someone is that distraught. I didn't exactly elaborate on what else has been going on, so that wasn't the whole story. I don't hate her, and do care about her...I'm very good friends with people in her family, so it's not like I never hear about her, and I do still try to help them however I can to get her the help she needs. It's not so much that she's controlling me, but since I'm not ever going to hate her it does get to be a real PITA sometimes. I decided to go and talk to her because she was responding to emails I sent last year (she apparently didn't look at the date) and thought I sent them last month, thinking I was still in love with her and wanted to get back together. After I talked to her, she emailed the next day saying, "It sounds like you never loved me and I'm leaving it at that". So did I. All the crap she put me through and she makes that comment? Fine by me. I cannot keep trying to breathe life into someone who sucks it out of me faster than I can catch it, and that's why I ended it in the first place.
But wait...there's more! I have an ex that I've been friends with, she is going through a rough spell with her b/f, so she calls and wants to get together (I guess thinking she can win me back, I dunno), than another friend whom I dated briefly calls and her husband is being abusive to her again. She won't leave him unless she knows she has someone else's arms to fall into, and she keeps hoping it's mine. She actually asked me to go on a vacation with her for four days. So she obviously doesn't know me, I'd never do that with a married/attached woman, even if the hubby is an ass.
Still not done....so I met another woman in May, and we hit it off very well. She and I fell for each other and I thought I was in Heaven. Then she decided she has insecurity issues and doesn't want to burden me and she just disappears, deletes her email account, and I have no way of getting in touch with her (she has my number, hers is blocked). Then I find out that the name she gave me is fictitious, her place of employment has never heard of her, and this woman I was completely falling for has vanished off the face of the earth, without an explanation and no trace of what happened.
So....everything happening in one month sent my emotions into turbulence and it all just got to me. So I now have three exes that I just don't think I can talk to anymore...and don't want to at this point.
An excerpt from something I wrote:
There are lots of women who can break my heart in two,
But since I wear it on my sleeve that's not so hard to do.
They can often slow my pulse but please don't think I'm gone,
They can never stop my heart the beat goes on and on.
Love is funny, when you think you've got it figured out,
Then another storm blows in and leaves you full of doubt.
But when the clouds have disappeared a rainbow's up above,
Another stormy day is gone, and you still believe in love.
